Happy and cry

First day of class 8 smp smp , early entry erratic mind all screwed no any friends in the class , only silence at the front desk , there is only a book and a pen with me and also my homeroom teacher teachers themselves are being berbicaara ahead class .
No one wants to talk to me even that I fear someone in 7th grade he wisely used his name is high and a large black scares me when I see him , and the first day I 've been teased by him .
I felt furious but could not do anything because I was powerless against it . I wondered why I was in this class with someone who is not why I like this " gift of my mind not known.
/ day and single day passes are becoming increasingly bizarre even for the person who I'm afraid even I myself became friends and became friends terbai I slama I was in 8th grade that the lives of people we hate could be our best friend .

Time runs very fast on this day when I Harri eighth grade I got close to the girl child 's own 9th grade my class I nulai kaka no interest in him , most things I remember when I got home with him , I was just asking me his basic hehe . After I asked I me his home with him riding koprades both talk and talk , because it was so asiknya did not realize until I was almost home . After that I went down and he still went on because his house is rather far away from me around 3km . In the evening I sms sms him the first time I asked him " what are you doing hay " that's the first word that I speak to him , since that's when I text him every night routine for sure I sms him because I also have the same feeling him so I do not bored him hehe .
Every day I watched him until told miss miss and others . 3 months went by I started there was a willingness to shoot him but I'm afraid that if I rejected him because I 've been close to 3 months so I'm afraid if I kehilangngan him . Until the day came when my friend called to tell me if siti ulfa there is also the same feeling myself so he asked " hay ibn siti who like the same again " , and I replied " si ih fuck you I'm ashamed of ya " replied ulfa ne ga have shot shy wrote " I replied " but I'm afraid ul , I'm afraid that if I rejected him " ulfa replied " ne ga have to be afraid anymore he likes with you "
And that's where I have the courage to express my feelings to him , a feeling that has been 3 months I buried him .
In the evening I started up the courage to shoot her , before I shot him I prayed that I received it. I asked siti " siti far I 've been close with gravel by- pebble I 've been through a rainstorm with you I arumi with you , when you need me always by your side on the contrary , I think there is a match between the two of us so with this I want you to be a lover my "
And siti replied " well yes I think we have always shared a lot of things that we've been through together I also feel there is a match between the two of us , I also want to be a person who is important to you and meaningful to you so I want you to also be the person who sepesial me alone when grief and sorrow . "
I was very happy feeling that I'm happy all the time because I had the feeling that I was accepted by many women during this time puja puja .
The day passed without any problems until one time I hit doing very big blunder , which shook his heart to tears , I was also stupid stupid me until I made ​​him cry so sadly , I cheat on him behind with my own .
I decided just for the sake of her siti me stupid I can not even think at the time I could only cry at the time , I was dating a friend of my own together for 2 months and it has foundered because supremely indifferent annoying and very stupid , on the day of the week I decided not to touch with ina again and at that time also siti is online and he saw that I was not related at ina . As long as I'm going out with ina well I'm still close together siti often sms , after hearing that he asked me " you already ga going out with him " I replied " yes I just broke up because he was really cool with me " she said " Ouh so so now you are just who dong " I said I'm still alone " he replied " why themselves instead emang no " I replied " no you're going to do so a replacement ( I laughed " he replied " I was betrayed again EVER " I replied " not I was not willing to cheat again and do not want to hurt you again "
Thank God he believes and wants to be my boyfriend again , we come back together again and through a day filled with happiness again hehe that's full of twists and turns that life churned like a fire burning savanna , after 4 months had passed , he went to school he was playing with his friend , and invited to the cafe is the cafe CoreNet , after I was in the cafe we were both chatting and watching movies twiligh together , we watch movies there usur seknya , we had not been in contact sada lips and doing things we've never done , so we did kiss the first in our lives together. Our hearts pounding and pounding our body heat because it was the first kiss . After we finished our home in the cafe together and hold hands very tightly to hard to be removed . It was the most memorable period of time for myself because it is real love I ever get from a woman .
Once it's all ending up with even my first kiss a lot of contention there but it is what makes our love strong to the old . But at a time when our relationship has reached 9 months we broke up because of a reason that I myself do not know , he dumped me and broke my heart a mess , I got one consecutive week mengangis continue until the evening when my parents know that I lost contact with siti .
That's the most horrible day of my life so far , after the break up I'm still in contact with him but because one thing we 've no relationship again , I was very disappointed and so far I'm still upset with him because he had made ​​love to her and it still does not eliminate this love , often cry at night because I miss him , but I can not do anything . Let me keep this feeling until it's time I close my eyes forever .

That's my story , actually there are many events that have not I tell but because of limited time enough to be here yes . We continued again next time yes .